Pluto Quincunx Sun

Your sense of self and your transformative drive do not naturally line up, so you keep adjusting between staying as you are and being remade, between safety and the pull of the depths. It can feel like the stable self and the intense one are never the same. The work is treating that adjustment as a skill, a hard-won sense of when to hold and when to let yourself change. At your best you become unusually good at transforming without losing yourself.